Seeing Sideways

What the BLEEP do we know?

Honestly, I had a hard time focusing on this movie. I wasn’t feeling it.  I think it is clever that we see with our brain and not our eyes, but then I get confused. If a blind person has never been able to see, what do they see? If their brain has never seen an object, can they perceive it? It’s so confusing to me. It’s like thinking about what’s after space. You can’t say it’s “infinite”, SOMEthing comes after it. I just don’t like thinking about these types of things.

Who are you?

Who are you in the eyes/perception of others?
I asked this question for five or six different people and their feedback was generally the same. The relatives were more apt to point out the negative than my friends, but even still they weren’t bad. I know my negative traits and agreed with them. 
Here’s what everyone said:

honest caring person thats musical and bubbly and hardly ever negative spoiled

polite, respectful, obedient outgoing! fashionable kind thoughtful

Britni Sherlock is a beautiful,caring,gentle girl.  She is smart,sweet and a good worker.  She can do anything she puts her mind too.  If you need help with anything she will be there.  She has a good sense of humor.  what else can I say about her.  She is a great loving girl. [obviously, this was my grandma]

extremely bubbly nice honest sometimes too honest or blunt loyal to friends and family really funny but sometimes it comes out mean when you don’t mean to

outgoing, talk a lot, positive attitude, awesome hair, trusting

genuine, truthful,  easy going, whatever happens, happens. hate conflict, avoider, procrastinator, unorganized, ditzy,  deep thinker, high morals, emotionally reliable
 
How do you see/perceive yourself?
I see myself almost exactly how others see me, which I guess is good. I’m caring, loyal, honest, positive, and thoughtful. But there are also a lot of negative traits I see in myself that others haven’t mentioned. I’m an extreme perfectionist. Nobody knows this because it doesn’t show. When I work on something with my name on it I want it to the best that it can be and I’m never satisfied with the final product. There has yet to be an assignment that I have turned in that I have been completely happy about. A lot of the time it has to do with procrastination. I procrastinate so long that it’s nearly impossible for a project to be up to my standards. I want everything I do to be really good and I know what i’m capable of so it makes me upset that I never seem to reach my full potential.

Why are you here? (your definition of here)
I think it’s a silly question because if anyone were to ask me I would just say, “because God put me here and has a plan for me.” I’m not extremely religious, but I do believe that. At the roughest points in my life I have turned to God and positivity and I manage to figure it out. There have been times when I just feel like I’m here for a reason, I’m not sure what exactly it is, but I know I’m here to make an impact on someone or something.

What are the implications of your identity to others? (you decide to whom the implications apply - you or others, but be specific)
I think no matter what, especially at my age, it’s almost impossible to fully know who you are. My mother has always told me that I have been very sure of myself and I’ve always “known who I am” from a younger age, but I think I’m still learning. I have always been confident and followed my own lead by not letting peer pressure or society norms get to me, but as a person, I still don’t know exactly who I am. I’m not sure what I want. I think at my age now is the most confused I have ever been, mostly confused about where I’m going. I’m not sure exactly what career path I will choose and whichever path I end up choosing will depict who I am. Different friends and influences also factor in on who you are as a person, so I’m not sure. Right now, I would like to think that I stand my ground and over-all I am a good-hearted person who will help you whenever you need it, you just have to ask. Sometimes you don’t even have to ask because I tend to be able to tell how somebody is feeling without them even saying anything. I don’t really act on it, but I can always tell, no matter how much they’re hiding it.


How are you effected by the identity of others? (are you different around various people - why might that be)
I want to say that I’m not affected by others, but that’s far from the truth. I very much believe that, “you are who you run with.” It’s very true. I’m happy that I surround myself with hard-working, social people. I hate being around negative people because they just bring me down. If somebody is going to degrade everyone and everything around them then it makes me feel bad, it’s bad energy. I hate having bad energy around me. You won’t usually find me around those people. If I am, I usually want to help them. Even if it is just how they are, if someone seems depressed all of the time, I’m going to want to fix it. I can’t seem to grasp the fact that I can’t fix everything and that just frustrates me.

Is identity static? (make sure to show in your project your answer to this)
heck no. I’m taking “static” to mean “constant”. I don’t think Identify is constantly the same. Identity changes all of the time. Maybe even day-to-day. Some people are different just depending of who they’re hanging out with. If I’m around people who I find intimidating, I will be a lot more quiet than if I’m around people who are my friends. Identity definitely isn’t static. People change all of the time.

Fear Assignment

 So for my last post, I said that people might flinch as a responce to my project. The only problem is that I changed my project. I was going to have someone listen to holophonic sound who has never heard it before. I did that experiment at home. I had three different people listen to it. One person took off her headphones, another just laughed because it felt so real, and the last guy jumped and did a girly spin move. In holophonic sound, it’s 3D so it sounds real. One of the examples was a car crash and it sounded extremely real, that’s when one of the guys jumped. There’s another clip called the barbershop and it sounds like you are getting a haircut. It’s actually pretty creepy if you don’t know what holophonic sound is before you listen to it.

  I missed the first fear assignment class and after being filled in with all of the projects everyone else did, I realized I could take this project further. Next class, I still went prepared to do holophonic sound and then one woman in the class explained hear fear of panic attacks. That was my other fear, only it wasn’t a fear anymore because I got better so I decided to share that story. Although, while I was sharing that story the ultimate prank on Beth was happening so I kind of have no idea what I was even saying because I was so focused on what was going on. It was hard not to laugh! Anyway, I’m not sure what my reaction was because of that, but that’s okay with me since I already overcame that fear. I was just explaining that it was once a great fear of mine.

 The person I related to the most was probably Deandra, I liked her fear because it’s similar to mine. A lot of people might not know that though. I appear so laid bad and easy going that it’s hard to believe. I’ve always been a really positive person but when it comes to motivation, I’m the same as her. I can motivate other people all day, but motivating myself is the issue.

response.

might jump a little. It just depends on whether or not they truly know what my project is.

Five Again

For this project, I immediately knew what I was going to do. When I was younger I would always make necklaces or bracelets out of paperclips…. or fingernails (I liked the way it sounded on a typewriter - yes, that long ago), but I won’t go there. So then after I realized I would combine all of the paperclips into a bracelet and/or necklace, I felt that it wasn’t enough. I stuck with the plan though because that is what I did when I was five. I thought it was amazing back in the day. 

What I remember

I really liked this project because I am more focused in audio production. Whereas a lot of people in class are far more comfortable with the visual aspect, I feel more comfortable with the non-visual aspects. I really enjoyed the conversation about audio vs. video since I have read quite a bit about the topic.

I never thought Aimee and I would be creating an audio track about somebody taking a crap, but it was fun. We laughed for two hours straight making the foley effects and listening to the sounds on repeat. I wasn’t quite sure how people would react, either they were going to think we were crazy & we’d have awkward silence (other than Aimee & I laughing at ourselves) or they would also think it was funny. I’m not sure if it was funny because it was a bathroom situation (they are ALWAYS funny) or because it was so unexpected of us.

I found Chris’s story really touching. It gave me goosebumps! There is always something about somebody being raw. And you never discredit goosebumps.

The cut-up interview was a very cool approach as well. I thought it was very interesting. In my intro video class we had to edit an interview where we would move around questions and answers and it really is crazy how much you can change in interview, yet make it seamless.